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Dear Reader… 5 years later!

Dear Reader… 5 years later!

             Dear Reader! Gosh, this sounds too formal, no? Hey, Lot. Now, that is better. This is an extremely special post for me – after all, completing 5 years of writing is not something that happens every day!!! 5 years ago, I was a different person. A little sadder, more chaotic and yet, the words I wrote have so much power… Grab a seat, Lot. I have cake! 

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Dear reader, if it feels like a trap
You’re already in one

             When I look back at the first reviews and lists and personal posts I wrote, I cannot help but smile. You can feel the anger, the sadness, melancholy and roughness of it all. Of all I’ve been through. 

And one might say “Jules, what exactly have you been through?” – well you know I am quite upfront with my feelings. It helps me, and this 5 year journey was something that healed me, better than any medication.

But before we get all too dramatic and nostalgic, my dear Lot, I want to just sit back and look at all of the things I did last year. For sure I wrote less than in previous years, but it is okay. That was my intention – to focus more on what is outside of my little screen. To fall in love with art, handmade thighs, books (again!) and… Just enjoy life.

             And I think that by doing this intermittent writing (hehe), I gave myself space to evolve into my (hopefully?) final version: happy, grateful, joyous and… Unhinged, in the best possible way.

Never take advice from someone who’s falling apart

             Dear Lot, let me tell you something – I think I finally found the desired level of gentleness when it comes to taking a break or realizing that you cannot pour from an empty cup. And there is no authenticity in forcing yourself, and even with emergency posts like lists, I want to do them the right way. My right way. 

It’s not that I am stepping down completely, no! Quite the contrary, because I am insanely in love with writing! But I also recognize moments of weakness, where I don’t want to be left “alone” with my mind and pour it out so roughly. I am still upfront with my life and feelings, but I am also more cautious. 

Because for a little moment, it was very hurtful to see certain people trying to copy what I do, what I am and how I live my life – people who are beautiful and talented in their own ways and fields. So am I doing this to protect my peace a little? Yes, absolutely.

             Now, there is a positive thing that came from that “guarding” position I curled myself into – re-falling in love with books and doing this little fish bowl filled with various book covers – stories I know all too well or something I’ve never read before. Depression and anxiety made me struggle a lot with focusing my attention and keeping focused on reading a book so imagine my joy and happy tears when I got myself into reading again…

Dear reader, bend when you can
Snap when you have to

             I also started painting again, which is extremely relaxing and this year, I will also embark on a journey of card-making… Wait a minute – I already started that journey! Yes, my love language is doing cards and bookmarks for my friends, literally showering them with these tiny things. And the genuine joy and appreciation on their faces, even when they use Kindle… Worth it all. 

But this year I will try to make some nice Christmas cards for my family and friends so I am excited. And should probably get to this before it’s too late! In the world of crafts, I also started doing embroidery which is so relaxing, I cannot even express it. And these make great gifts too. 

So yes, writing is not my only manual therapy these days… 😉 Guess it is true what they say about Libras, always craving for beauty and sprinkling creativity in their lives as if it was cinnamon on their morning coffee (for abundance, of course). 

So I wander through these nights
I prefer hiding in plain sight

             Dear Lot, it was a great year. A bit quieter, more thoughtful with unexpected challenges and a few speed bumps along the way – but I wouldn’t have it any other way. And as I realize that a full 2024 summary will come in December, I look fondly at the things that happened for me and my loved ones – Ed Sheeran’s concert, Taylor Swift’s Eras Tour, my trip to the Philippines… 

Each of these things contributed to the happiness that I started to feel more often. Because as you grow up, you realize that happiness is not a permanent state but rather a feeling, and it doesn’t have to be grand or complex. 

It can be simple, like planning a long-overdue weekend with your best friend to catch up on watching The Rings of Power. Or going out for a walk… Or attending yoga classes every Monday and Wednesday, just to realize you are pretty good at this after all.

             It’s every new song I learnt how to play on the piano, it’s every moment I spent with my (slightly dysfunctional) family. Every new or old movie watched, every step out of the comfort zone taken with people who love you for YOU. 

The greatest of luxuries is your secrets

             Beaming. Is the word I want and will to describe myself now. Beaming with joy, happiness, calmness. I have so much to look forward to: returning to the works on my book, telling you everything about movies, my favorite albums or books. Because that is what Twin Peaks Café is all about – passion, feelings and emotions associated with pop culture, with a dash of my personal life. 

Some things will never change, this much is true, but they have space to evolve – and that is how I see the future of my blog. Evolving with me, growing, struggling and rising up. And the best part is that I don’t have to prove anything, even to myself. Because I just know <3 

I wouldn’t be where I am today without the support of my family and my friends. That much I know for certain, and this is what keeps me humble and grounded. My bright light, shining through the thickest clouds, is only as bright as the people around me. 

You should find another guiding light, guiding light
But I shine so bright

             With that, I want to say thank you – to each one of you who stops by to give a read or leave a comment. I appreciate that more than you know. I will forever hope that this place, this little virtual café is a safe harbor for you, just as it is for me.

My dear Lot, we have so much to look forward to! Starting with October itself and the beginning of crispy autumn – the spooky season! And this year I am taking it quite seriously, and that means I will embark on the journey of watching classic horror movies. 

And then November and definitely-not-in-my-bingo-card trip to Brussels with MM and Sean, which might be quite fucking revolutionary, and perhaps the wheels of fate will finally reach their designated place to make it all work out? Yes, there is one super important thing I finally learnt this year – though I wrote about it so many times… – timing. The divine, universal timing is everything. 

             Life is good. And I just know that it will be better. With humble acknowledgment that it might throw some occasional curveballs. But hey, as long as I am not alone (and I know that I am not and never will be), nothing is so scary anymore. Well, okay. Alien Romulus was pretty fucking scary.

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